1 Jul 2015

is my life supposed to look like this?




"Inhale the future, exhale the past." // 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 - Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

I get caught up in the chaos. As if having a mind that has too many tabs open, all the time, isn't enough, other obstacles that I didn't see coming or ask for come my way. They ruin my schedules, they ruin my carefully thought out plans, they turn my emotional state into a hurricane of panic and exasperation and resentment, which causes me to comfort eat.
Before I go on, let me make a quick point here: I already eat too much. Minus the comfort eating.

It comes to the end of one of those confounded days that have been hit by an unexpected bomb of disorder, and I find myself wondering, is life supposed to look or feel or be this messed up?

And then comes that small, inferior voice in the back of my mind, whispering, yes, if you allow it to.
Because, I guess, a small part of me knows the truth.

I can leave it all alone and go to bed. I can give thanks for what I do have and what did go well, and I can forget about what didn't. It's a choice. I can choose not to dwell on the last 24 hours that didn't go the way I wanted them to. There will be more days to live through, and there have been plenty I've already lived through. And honestly? All in all? The good outweighs the bad.
As for the negativity that I thought was clinging to me instead of the other way around, I can just stop carrying it around with me. I can let go, let it fall, and walk away, without waiting to hear the thud of it hitting the ground. Tomorrow is always a fresh day. A day in which no mistakes have yet been made, in which there are new possibilities and an opportunity to have a grateful, uplifting outlook, and to just try again.

We all have that choice.

20 comments:

  1. "Tomorrow is always a fresh day." This sentence really stood out to me, Tane. I loved this piece. Keep it up! :)
    ~ Sanjana
    peridotcove.blogspot.com

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    1. And it is. :) Thank you so much, Sanjana!

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  2. I loved this Tane, especially the part where you talked about how tomorrow is a new day, a day for new possiblities, that was beautiful.

    ~Noor
    www.alittlebitofsunshineblog.com

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  3. This is so beautiful, and such a great reminder! We all really do have that choice. <3

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    1. And we have to decide to take that choice or not. I fight against myself all the time, but in the end, deciding to let things just float away is better for me.
      x

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  4. thank you tane. sometimes it helps to have the truth shoved in my face, because only then do i smile and feel uplifted ( which is, by the way, what i feel now) ♡

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    1. I'm the same way, Autumn. And thank you for the beautiful comment ♥

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  5. Amen. Oh, amen. Praise God that He is willing to take away the burden that we cling to so desperately. ♥

    xoxo

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  6. My dearest friend...you are so right. Tomorrow is always fresh...and His mercies are new every morning... Take heart, dear Tane and hold on to Jesus...He is your strength!
    Blessings to you and oh so much love...
    Wish I could give you a hug today:)
    Kelly-Anne

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    1. I will, He is my rock <3
      And I wish I could give you a hug. Someday we will, okay?
      -T
      x

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  7. Yes, we all have that choice. Thank you so much for the reminder!! <3

    ~Natasha

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  8. I agree so much with this lovely post, Tane. I'm one of those people too who freak out if their plans don't work out perfectly. I'm learning to let it go and embrace the crazy that usually happens.

    -Madi

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    1. The way you just put it is perfections, Madi. Yes, yes, yes.

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  9. I don't know how I've missed your lovely blog for all this time!! I'm giving you a follow girl. ;)

    writingforhisgloryblog.blogspot.com

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  10. I love this. So much:)

    It reminded me of Anne of Green Gables when you said tomorrow is a new day- Anne said in her book, "Tomorrow is another day clean without mistakes in it."

    ~Emily

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    1. That's right- I think that quote was in the back of my mind. Loved that book...and thanks, Em!

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