Perfect Moments

Image my own, taken with my iPhone at our local beach, on a day when my family and I played and ran and teased each other and laughed and splashed in the ocean and watched the sunset.

Sometimes I want to cry because I will never be able to fix everything that so desperately needs repair, or tie all the loose ends that, trust me, need to be tied. Sometimes I want to cry because I, myself, am so beyond repair.

Sometimes I want to give up, on everything. It feels as though it might be easier.

But I'm not going to. I'm going to choose to live my life, the life Jesus has given me to honor and praise Him with.

I'm going to feel the cold splash as I jump into the blue pool water on a hot Summer day, I'm going to smile and close my eyes as a breeze lifts a strand of my hair and drops it again, I'm going to clutch my warm mug of tea, I'm going to feel paper beneath my hands as I draw or write, I'm going to try harder to become more like Jesus, I'm going to laugh as my little brother wraps his little arms around my neck, I'm going to feel the festive feeling in the air as Christmas nears, I'm going to shiver when I listen to beautiful music, I'm going to read books, I'm going to bake treats with my siblings, I'm going to flourish under my God's loving care, safely tucked under His wings, I'm going to look back on precious memories and hold them close and I'm going to look forward to all the beautiful things that I know will happen in the future.


My life isn't perfect, but it has perfect moments.

I'm going to live the perfect moments.

{via}

I'm not dead, actually...

...I'm just going through a very busy stage in my crazy life. (In which involves lots of daisies - it's Spring for South Africa - yay!)

OK. I love my life. It's amazing, and God has blessed me in so so many ways - I cannot even begin to count them all. I don't deserve it, any of it.
But part of life are the hectic stages, the 'I'm sure there are so many other things I should be doing, but I'm too busy with the rest of my life' to even think about it' stages. (Or, at least, I know I go through those stages).
Blogging ends up falling into the 'I'm too busy with the rest of my life to think about it' category, far too often. And then, posts that should be published aren't, blogs that should be designed aren't (I am so sorry to those on my waiting list! Uggghh!), pictures that should be taken aren't, comments that should be posted aren't, and so on.

It makes me feel claustrophobic, somehow. Like there's too much, too much and I just. Need. To. Get. Away! Not from blogging particularly, but also from the many, many trials, situations and all the little things that we all face in life. At night I stress and worry, and toss and turn about these things or those things that I must deal with.

But I'm wrong. I worry myself about things that I must deal with- when I am NOT alone. I'm not dealing with any of my problems alone. He is always there, with me, looking after me, loving me. He is there, and it's not only me who is thinking about my life.
The important part- is that He loves me, more than anyone else loves me. And the Bible says that perfect love drives out fear.
That's it. I have no need to feel fear. The anxiety? I can dispel that in the name of Jesus, because He loves me perfectly and deeply, so deeply.

Lately, the more I read God's word, the more I realize this: God wants to give us the gift of peace.
It's ours to take if we want to. We have to give it to Him, and say 'God, I trust you, and I want to feel your peace in me'.
For people like me, that's so hard to do. It's not trust issues. I do trust Him, because I know He is my savior.
The problem is accepting peace.
You see, I have to learn to understand that I cannot do anything without Him. That He is the only One who can guide me down the right path everyday. He holds everything in the palm of His hand, including me and my life. I need to understand that it's just that simple - that I can just give it to Him and go to sleep.

{VIA}

{VIA}

I'm the sort of person who always thinks there is something more to it, or that it's far more complicated than it looks. That nothing is ever really easy. But, the truth is, sometimes it is simple. And I can simply trust God with all my worries. I can put my cares in His hands.

And so, the reason I really wrote this post was to let my followers know that I can and I will get back to blogging. It turned into a post about something that has been on my mind for awhile.
I'll eventually stop neglecting my duties as a blogger- I'll eventually get back to it. Maybe not right away. But God has a plan for everything, and I trust Him in His timing. I trust Him with my life. After all - who else has died for me?

Ending this post, with peace in my heart-

Tane ♥

lately

Life has been...
...enjoying the Autumn chill.
rainy. (sometimes happy about the rain, sometimes not)
me apologizing for being a bad blogger, and not being active...sorry for not posting for ages, people.
having a visit with one of my best friends that I hadn't seen for ages. (Elzé)
having weird dreams.
reading one my favorite book series all over again for maybe the third time. (Cat Royal series by Julia Golding)
reading Divergent. *smiles* I love it.

learning new things about blog designing.
having got another new beautiful notebook as a gift to add to my collection.
writing letters. (I reluctantly admit that I'm a bad penpal. Sorry to Braelyn, for not writing for so long, if you're reading this- your letter will be on it's way soon)
waiting to watch Catching Fire- hopefully.
Divergent (the movie) is finally out here in South Africa. *yay!* well, actually, I've only been waiting for it for a few days...wanna watch it. soon. I am not quite a person for standing suspense.
going to watch Captain America: The Winter Soldier at the movies today.
waiting for the other two books that are sequels to Divergent. can't wait. I'm not the sort of person who has a lot of patience, either.
are you a Divergent fan?
trips to the mall.
playing pool.
lots of whey smoothies.
sunsets still as beautiful as ever.
sad because we have to move out of our rented house soon.
lots of baby guinea pigs. (I'll do a post on that after this)
being able to wear warm jackets that sometimes make me feel a little fuzzy inside on cold nights.
selling stickers...lots of stickers...especially of these two:

thank you so much to God for blessing me with sales. :) I don't deserve any at all, yet He gives...He gives so much stuff / things / happiness to me...

enjoying the school holidays.

good food.

baking chocolate muffins.
reading Exodus in the Bible...

And that's what I've been up to. What have you been doing? I love hearing about you in your comments...so feel free to tell me about your dislikes & likes, movie watching, book reading, weather, anything, etc. Interactivity with other bloggers is one of my favorite things about being on blogger.