31 Jul 2017

Monday Musings [7] - To Love And To Be Loved

Seven years old and her parents, they fight at night
When they think she’s sleeping ‘cause she turned off the lights
Momma wasn’t very strong and it wasn’t very long
‘Fore the doctors said there was fault with her lungs

Fast forward nine tough years, her daddy, he likes his beers
He’s drowning in his liquor and she’s drowning in her tears
One day he leaves her a note and he just disappears
No girl should be left with nothing but her hurt and fears

School somehow loses all its importance
And she’s working without any experience
She’s trying so hard to get by
But something inside her has died
Couple more years and a few times fired
Past admitting that her situation is dire

Now she’s living in her beat-up car
Thinks she’s maybe gone too far
And she’s got no one except this one guy
Who slicks back his hair and thinks he’s fly

He likes to take her for a walk once in a while
Tells her that he just wants to see her smile
Pretends to be gentlemanly
But he’s not nice company
You can tell by the bruises
And the alcohol he abuses
You could say she’s used to it
But does that really excuse it?

She’s lost so much and still she loses more
When a father ends his child’s life before it’s born

Now she’s living with a broken heart
Thinks that she’s maybe gone too far

One day her man stumbles through the dark
To find her but she’s missing from her car
There’s a note
Something she wrote
With tear stains all over the crumpled paper
‘Cause it reminded her of the dad who left her

It doesn’t say much but it says enough
She says she just wanted to be loved
And to love

He passes out drunk after crying for a bit
The next morning they find her in a ditch
The man in uniform, he shakes his head
He’s lived life and seen a lot of dead

But this girl does something to his soul
And later that night when he goes home

He wraps his arms around his little daughter
Tells her that he’s gonna be there for her
And he grabs his wife and he holds her close
Says honey, do you know that I love you so

She smiles and for him it’s enough
Just to love and to be loved

written: 31/07/17


  1. This made me think, thank you.

  2. Oh my gosh, wrench my heart out, why don't you?

    1. My apologies, Grace. I do want to say thank you for reading, though ;)

  3. Wow this is powerful. Honestly no words, you just blew me away.

    Anna | www.worldthroughherheart.blogspot.com

    1. Thank you, Anna. I appreciate your comment a lot xx

  4. Your words are SO powerful and SO beautiful. I love reading your blog because it just brings so much realness and honesty. I've been reading for awhile, but I changed up the account I use for blogging so I have followed you from my new account, and I would love it if you would check out mine as well <3
    Can't wait to read more of these Monday musings, and like I said last week, I feel like these should be turned into songs or something because they are so powerful.

    1. Thank you so much, Lauren. I really appreciate that you read my stuff! I'll be sure to check out your blog.

  5. So sad. :'( You're a brilliant writer, Tane, and I think what makes this hit home ever more is it's true for too many people. I like the redeeming factor at the end though. Thanks for the reminder to give love. xx

    1. Thanks, Jessica ♥ Your comments are always really encouraging. Thank you for stopping by.

  6. Oh Tane, this just hit me right in the feels. So full of truth and beauty, I love it so much.


  7. TANE. This is dark compared to your other poems, but how bright it is, at the end. Love you, m'dear!

    xoxo Abigail Lennah

    1. Thank you, Abigail! Yeah, I guess it is a bit darker. But I guess you can't see the light without the dark, right? ;) Love you.

  8. AGH your poetry is amazing. Thanks for sharing Tane; this unexpectedly impacted my morning.

    1. Thanks, Olivia ♥♥ You impacted my day with your comment. xx

  9. Honestly, I am in tears. I DID just say goodbye to my sister who I won't see for a while, so it's been an emotional day, but still. This really really made me cry. Unfortunately it's a common story, one that is repeated over and over except maybe that ending.
    We have a friend in Nicaragua who has had multiple boyfriends, and two kids. She has some kind of cancer, and has these freak out moments where she basically goes crazy. She's lived on the streets, she's lived with strangers, she's lived in and out of pain and destitution her entire life. Her daughter is just barely fifteen with a baby already, and her boyfriend is no where to be found. Her son is 12 and not doing well at all in the third grade.
    That's just ONE of the many broken people we know. Hardly a fraction of how many there are in the world... and it's heart breaking. What do you do when you face these people- living in literal hell?
    The only thing you can. Give them the hope you don't think they deserve. Give them the love you don't want to give. Show them that God has given them another chance.

    Anyway, I'm not sure why I rambled on so. I do that a lot don't I?
    This was such a great post, Tane!!! Thanks for sharing it.

    1. Esther, I always enjoy your comments. I do not consider them to be rambling.
      Your paragraph is a testimony in itself, and I felt close to crying by the end. What you said is so true. There are so many broken people. We have a hope living in us, and we must never hold back from sharing it with others.

      I will pray for your friend. Thanks so much for your comment. xx

  10. thank you for making terrible things beautiful with your words <3

  11. Whoaaa. I really don't have any words, that was so sad! But I loved what you call it, 'To love and be loved' ♡♡♡♡

  12. "She smiles and for him it’s enough
    Just to love and to be loved"

    <3 <3 <3
    so so beautiful.
    thank you for sharing.

  13. Love your post dear ♥
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  14. Oh wow I loved this 😍 it's so sad but so beautiful, I really loved reading it 😊

    Andrea // spaceshipsvampiresandsecretagents.blogspot.co.uk


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