30 Oct 2019

Wednesday Words [6] - Anchor


My heart may feel like it can’t take another wave of pain
But in these dark waters I remain tethered to you, my Anchor
And I will find each new breath in your mighty name
Even if these currents are strong, I know You are stronger

When I fear I’ll drown it'll end up being my fear that drowns
You'll reach out with Your strong hand and You'll save me
And when others do I know You won’t ever let me down
For your love is a lifesaver and it holds me steady

So I’m held safe and kept warm by Your embrace
No one can pull me from Your arms and no one can ruin Your perfect plans
And when the storm comes I’m focussing on Your face
Because my treasure will be where my heart is and my heart is in Your hands

-t.h.
written: 27/10/19

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A/N: He is our safe place. Let's set our sights on Him.

The Lord your God in your midst, the Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing. / Zephaniah 3:17, NKJV

For where your treasure is, there your heart will will be also. / Matthew 6:21, NKJV

This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast. / Hebrews 6:19, NKJV

25 Oct 2019

Five Minute Friday [1] - You Are


I don't know what I'd do without you. You're that first cup of hot tea in the morning, you wake me up. You're that hug when I'm feeling cold and lonely, you comfort me. You're that random, unexpected compliment, you make me smile. You're that music, the kind that sings to my heart, you give my life a beat. You're that good book I can't put down, you are inspiring. You're that spring in my step after I've had a good day, you make me feel better. You're the colours splashed across the sky that my eyes never want to stray from, you are a rainbow. You're my favourite pair of shoes, you're always there for me. You are better than chocolate and you are even better than my bed. (Side note: my bed is really, really great) Do you even know how much you are to me?

You are the one wiping away the tears every time I cry,
and I cry easily.
Don't ever leave me alone.

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A/N: Hi all! Wow, no one hears a thing from me in the blogging world for over a year and now there's been three posts here at Fith out of Ten in under two weeks? Haha. May it be a good sign :)

Anyways, this post is the start of another series I want to do, where I sit down every Friday and get myself to just write for five timed minutes without over thinking it, then title it and post it. It's a wonderful way of making myself write even when I am lacking inspiration or have writer's block and it's another way of helping me swing into a routine of regular posting. I owe the idea of 'Five Minute Friday' to Lisa-Jo Baker, another writer/blogger who came up with it and suggested doing this once a week. Her blog is amazing, even for younger people who don't have kids (she focuses on motherhood/parenthood) so feel free to head on over there and check it out.

Have yourself a lovely day, and remember to tell those who mean the most to you how much you appreciate them ♥

23 Oct 2019

Wednesday Words [5] - Words Never Said


I'm sorry for all the words I didn't say, they sit beneath my tongue day by day
a tumble of syllables never voiced, things that should have been said
isn't it strange how easy it is to look back, when it's never clear up ahead
I think it's sad how regret is only an afterthought, opening my mind to my mistakes
but my mouth is glued shut and time peels away from me like paint, flake by flake

I'm sorry, sorry for all the words I didn't say
I was wading through thoughts that were so deep and so thick
and I whisper those words when no one is around
but when I have the chance to speak my mouth turns to brick

I don't know when we last talked and I don't know when we will next
but you dance in the caverns of my conscience and I can't get you out of my head
and if I'm being honest, even when I feel that my mind is at its best
I fear oblivion of a needed realization, I fear the words will never ever be said

still I'm sorry, sorry for all the words I didn't say
and somehow with ease they always come when I put pen to page
but I guess that's me and has always been my way
I can write with my eyes closed but can't get my mouth to engage

but sometimes ink scrawls or typed out letters aren't enough
and if I was mute you might understand this and it would be okay
but you've heard me sing, seen me sob, made me laugh
and there's no excuse, for there are things one owes the other to say

so that's why I'm sorry for those words never said
I should have told you, I should have explained, I should have apologized
I wanted to tell you so many times that I still cared
but I let it fall through, I left you in the rain, and by not saying something I lied

now I stand here and if your walls are up, I'm not surprised
just please hear me from where I am, hear me give all I can:
I want to tell you that if there are things you surmised
the truth is that I am sorry, I truly and openly am

and I know now that we're no longer friends, no longer allies
you may not want to remember all that you can
but I hold the memories in my hand and I see them in your eyes
and I carry you with me 'cause you're part of who I am

so for those unsaid words
and for all those hurts
hear me

I'm sorry.

-t.h.
written: 22/09/2018

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A/N: This is something I wrote awhile ago, as you can see by the date. But I picked it out from my blog archives and dusted it off to share with you, because even though the state of my mind and my writing style has changed even in just the breadth of one year, this piece of writing still consists of feelings I felt at certain points in time. My plan is to continue (as consistently as I can manage) with the Monday Musings and Wednesday Words series here on my blog as part of my weekly routine- so let's see how that goes, shall we? 

By the way, constructive criticism and/or feedback is very appreciated :) I hope you have a blessed day and that more often than not, you manage to say the things that need being said.

18 Oct 2019

Thoughts Inspired By Malachi

Hi, everyone. So. This is basically the first post towards a blog revival- because this blog has been inactive for a shamefully long time, I know. But, Lord willing, I hope that the season I am in currently will allow me to at least get it up and running again. I’ve felt Him gently pushing me to start writing again, and although I’m not entirely sure why yet (all I can think is that since He put the love of writing in me at a very young age, perhaps I shouldn’t let it plateau), I will write if He tells me to write. After all, I’ve missed the blogging world and my blogger friends rather a lot. Now it’s just to settle in once more, find a weekly routine, and slip back into the groove I’ve been out of for too long. I’m looking forward to it.
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The Bible says that you will find God if you seek Him, and if you seek Him with your whole heart. (Jeremiah 29:13) It’s one of my favourite verses from the Word of God, but to agree with it and then to actually apply it are two different things. Maybe that sounds obvious- and yet, I think those of us who know it or have maybe heard it regularly often find ourselves simply nodding along, but not making more time to spend time doing just that: seeking the King of kings. I’ve been strongly convicted of this very thing in my own life this past month and a half, so much so that I asked Jesus to forgive me for my on and off neglection of seeking Him during this year. And dear reader, what a sweet thing it is to be told I’m forgiven and called back into His arms. After all, drawing near to Him leads to Him drawing near to you, and nothing could be better. (James 4:8)

So, I’m seeking Him, I’m praying, I’m pleading, I’m spending time at His feet. I’m being refreshed by Him and at the same time I am asking him questions, some that I could never bring before anyone else, some about the future and where He wants me to be in days to come, some about how I can serve Him better. I want my heart to be in His hands, responding readily to anything He wants to do. I’m asking Him to show me what He wants me to be busy with, to give me the diligence to do whatever He has for me to do, to guide me. Because, you see, there could never be a more reliable or trustworthy Guide. (Psalm 48:14)

In consequence, as I’ve been falling back into the fulfilling routine of truly searching His wisdom out, I’ve recently been in the book of Malachi for the first time in a while, and I feel as if I really absorbed it more properly this time. How wonderful it is that God can reveal new things again and again from the same book or passage in the Bible! But anyways- I want to speak about a part near the end of Malachi, the last few verses of chapter three. The words really struck me as full of magnitude and strength, and I’ve had it on my heart to share them here on my blog and to write about them.

Then those who feared the LORD spoke to one another, and the LORD listened and heard them; so a book of remembrance was written before Him for those who fear the LORD and who meditate on His name. “They shall be Mine,” says the LORD of hosts, “On that day that I make them my jewels. And I will spare them as a man spares his own son who serves him.” Then you shall again discern between the righteous and the wicked, between one who serves God and one who does not serve Him. / Malachi 3:16-18, NKJV

When it speaks of those who feared the Lord and meditate on His name, I feel it’s a reference to born-again believers- and since I am one, I was uplifted by these verses. There were a few pointers that stood out to me that I’d love to share with you. Although, honestly, there’s probably so much more wisdom to glean from even such a small passage than what I felt I learned from it, but that’s the beauty of reading the living and powerful Word of God.

But without waiting any longer, if you are also seeking the Lord wholeheartedly, or even if you aren’t fully committed to doing that but are curious to know if it would be worthwhile to, I hope you will find some encouragement here in what the Lord says to His children.

Malachi 3 tells us

1. He listens to us. 

“The LORD listened and heard them.”

Has it ever felt like no one hears you? Has it ever felt like the Lord isn’t even listening to the cry of your heart? I know I have felt that way before. I still do, sometimes. But each time, the Lord proves me wrong. Even when I’m faithless, He remains faithful. (2 Timothy 2:13) Even if we doubt, as we so often tend to do, the truth is that God hears our every thought, knows our every need, feels our every pain and sees our every stumble. The verse that comes just before the one from Jeremiah about seeking the Lord promises that He listens to us- so we can be thoroughly assured that He does indeed hear us!

Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. / Jeremiah 29:12, NKJV

The challenge for us is to be consistent in praying to the Lord and calling upon Him. The more time we spend pursuing a relationship with the Lord, the closer to Him we’ll find ourselves.

2. We are remembered.

“A book of remembrance was written before Him for those who fear the LORD and who meditate on HIS name.”

I believe that to feel acknowledged and loved are innate desires of ours. How joyful can we be, then, to be able to know that the One who reigns over everyone and everything, the Creator of the universe and our Heavenly Father, remembers us, knows us inside out, and yet still loves us? There is nothing else that can truly satisfy that hungriness for recognition or wholesome love that is within us. The fact that the Lord remembers us, we who are nothing but vapours (Psalm 62:9) without Him, can fill us with a sense of worth that is only found by putting our identities in who Jesus Christ is. (Colossians 3:3) When we love Him, revere Him and set our minds upon Him as a response to Him loving us with perfect love, He says that we are remembered by Him. 

In Isaiah, God promises Zion (Israel) that He won’t forget them. But since He has promised salvation to all who believe upon His Son, we can know that can include us as well.

Can a woman forget her nursing child, and not have compassion on the son of her womb? Surely they may forget, yet I will not forget you. / Isaiah 49:15. NKJV

So, He has promised not to forget us. But even more substantially, through Jesus Christ, those who believe receive a promise of an eternal inheritance. What more than that could prove to us that He remembers us?

And for this reason He is the Mediator of the new covenant, by means of death, for the redemption of the transgressions under the first covenant, that those who are called may receive the promise of the eternal inheritance. / Hebrews 9:15, NKJV

3. We are His and we are spared. 

“They shall be Mine,” says the LORD of hosts.” 
“On that day that I make them My jewels.” 
“And I will spare them.”

Treasured is the word that comes to my mind when I read God calling those who fear and love Him, “Mine” and “My jewels”. Again, I’d like to remind you that His thoughts towards us can’t be numbered. He is faithful to love us with an unwavering love; He is faithful to call us His own.

Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called the children of God! / 1 John 3:1, NKJV

And then, Redeemed (one of my favourite words) is the word that I feel fits when I read about Him sparing us- because we are spared from a treacherous destination and spared from the end result of sin, we are made clean and we are forgiven. It is such a marvellous gift to be called His and to be called to Him.

Therefore He is also able to save to the uttermost those who come to God through Him, since He always lives to make intercession for them. / Hebrews 7:25, NKJV

I don’t know about you, but from where I’m standing, being treasured and redeemed instead of receiving what we actually deserved (condemnation, hell, and death) is wondrous in its enormity! Praise the Lord!

4. He has given us discernment.

“Then you shall again discern between the righteous and the wicked, between one who serves God and one who does not serve Him.”

Ah, last but not least. We need our eyes to be open to what a gift having open eyes can be, if it can be put that way. When someone is born again, God sends the Holy Spirit to remind them of the things He has taught them, to help lead them in the way they should walk and to essentially build on their spiritual conscience.

But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you. / John 14:26, NKJV

And we are His witnesses to these things, and so also is the Holy Spirit whom God has given to those who obey Him. / Acts 5:32, NKJV

When we seek His wisdom and the power of the Holy Spirit, He helps us to distinguish between what is wrong and right, what is true or false and what or who honours Him and what or who doesn’t. We need to rely fully on Him for these insights, as we can’t trust ourselves to know the difference or want to know the difference without Him. The Holy Spirit convicts us when we are sinning and aids us in glorifying the Lord, and is therefore indispensable to a Christian. Thankfully, as we talked about earlier, God listens to us and we can ask daily for an outpouring of the Holy Spirit. How wonderful is that! Not only are we heard, remembered, His jewels, and spared from ruin- we also have access to His wisdom!

In conclusion

So, although this has been really long (I commend you for bearing with me if you’ve made it this far. It seemed too hard to try shorten it when I’ve been really mulling this over and had many thoughts on it, and also when this is the first emergence of mine back into the writing world in quite some time. I’ll find a writing rhythm again sometime in the future 😉 ) I really hope and pray that some of it could hearten or invigorate you, even if it’s in a small way. May the Lord’s presence be felt in your heart and may the rest of your day be richly blessed.