8 Nov 2015


and here I am again, lifting my wet eyes to the sky
left behind and left wondering how, wondering why
watching a yellow balloon glide through the clouds
I watch and I'm silent even when I want to yell out loud

I'm like a child again, my heart tearing at the seams
I built a shell out of lost hopes and broken dreams
but ghosts walk through locked doors, and I hear myself scream
the light leaves me in the dark as it spills out of me in dull beams

and here I am again, clutching onto what I have left
a crowd of balloons tied to my wrist, still I am bereft
I find their colors reflecting on my skin, so vibrant
baby blue, pastel pink, sunset orange, deep violet
yet, the beauty only reminds me of what I could lose
I know my bones will still break, my flesh will still bruise

storms and winds will come, there will be things lost
things will be taken away, I'll be left to count the cost
empty and hurting because of the smallest of things
because of all the things I hold onto by their strings



I've been there before, destroyed by a stupid love for things. In that, there is a lesson to be learned, and I'm learning it. New knowledge, true knowledge, rebuilt me. (1 Timothy 6:17-19Luke 12:33-34Matthew 6:19-21) Don't trust in things. Things are frail. Don't chase after them, they aren't worth it.  I promise that they won't ever fill that hole inside of you, they'll just make more.


  1. Although I may not understand, I can still appreciate how well-written this poem is x

    The Life of Little Me

  2. "I build a shell out of lost hopes and broken dreams"

    "the light leaves me in the dark as it spills out of me in dull beams"

    My two favourites.

    Tane, you are absolutely incredible, and although so much beauty came out of this poem - I truly hope you are ok and the circumstances behind the poem aren't weighing on you too heavily <3


  3. You are great at this, you really are!!

  4. Tane, has anyone told you how fantastic you are? Your words are so full of emotion, and they fill me up with so many feelings, I love it <3 Stay amazing.


  5. this is so beautiful! i love the way you write and look forward to ever new post <3

  6. This was beautiful Tane! ♥ I loved reading every bit of it!

  7. the beauty of this kills me. <3

  8. Oh wow. I saw this the other day, but didn't read it until now. That is beautiful. I love it.

  9. Amen. Amen. Amen.
    How often do we start to find our joy in things, like you said?!
    Christ is the only one that can fill that hole. we have to keep pursuing him.

  10. Hey, Tane! I nominated you for the Liebster award! you totally don't have to do it if you aren't feelin it, but if you're interested, you can check it out here:

    The Liebster Award // Discover New Blogs!

  11. You've done it again, Tane. My heart is touched. <3

  12. this is truly amazing tane! wow, writing goals.
    - azia xx

  13. "because of all the things I hold onto by their strings." WHOA THIS IS DEEEP. ♥ And it's so full of heart and humanity and grace. Oh and your rhyming abilities. I haven't read a rhyming poem with such natural rhythm and meaning in a looong time. So thank you for sharing this, it was truly beautiful. :)


  14. absolutely love your blog, so glad I found it x
    S // www.zolablog.com

  15. I'll be left to count the cost, empty and hurting because of the smallest of things, because of all the things I hold onto by their strings.


    oh oh oh. i have felt these exact things in my soul countless times, and reading this was like discovering a chapter of my own story that has been torn out; forgotten. i have been gone from the blogging world for so long, coming back is like coming home to a place i've never been before -- and this "home" is full of new poets and writers that i never knew i was missing. i'm hoping to get back into blogging again (i've missed it), and i can't wait to read more of your words. not many people can inspire me with their words -- not many people can make me feel what they felt when they write, but you are one of them. don't stop writing. don't ever stop.

    xox, m

  16. you are a beautiful writer with a beautiful blog :)

    stay strong and may God bless you in all you do <3


  17. Oh my goodness, this is so deep and beautiful <3 I love it.


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