Live Alive

Looking back now, I kind of wish I'd savored everything more than I did. Late nights playing cards, laughing our heads off, inside jokes that we killed by telling them over and over again, sticky hugs from little brothers, toothless smiles, I love you's, being tucked in, jumping in the pool on a hot summer's day, eating watermelon, sitting by the fire telling stories in the winter, roasting marshmallows, trips to the beach that resulted in a car filled with sand, long drives, picnics and visits to the zoo, playing hide and seek, playing dress up, messing paint all over ourselves when we decided to repaint the walls in our rooms, climbing trees outside, running wild and barefoot, watching sunsets and sunrises. Moments that turned into memories. They haunt me, and after I've thought it through I realize it's in only a good way, if you can believe that. Nostalgia whispers to my soul often, and sometimes it makes me want to go back in time, do it all again, and do some things differently too. I miss 'back then'. Every now and then. But I can't spend my life chasing the past when it's already behind me.

All in all, I am grateful. For what has been, for what is, and for what will be. I've been through sadness and depression, through trials, through golden days that made my heart burst with contentment, experienced amazing experiences and made it out of dark times I thought I'd never survive. I've got to where I am now, a bright future ahead of me no matter what happens as long as I've got Jesus by my side.

You have got to remember, just like I have got to remember, that right now will also be long ago soon. Live in the moment, and live fully. Stop running around trying to get everything right and just breathe. Focus on the one most important thing: God. Let Him be in control, let things happen, let life happen. Take it a step at a time, don't forget to enjoy the company of the people you love and don't forget to eat that slice of chocolate cake once in awhile.

You're alive. It's no small thing. If you're reading this, you are alive. So act like it. Live alive.

Postscript: I'm back, just in case you didn't notice. It feels good. But I know I sort of left you all wondering where I went, since I didn't warn anyone that this blog (Foot. Fifth out of Ten. Oh my word, I just realized that my blog's abbreviation is foot) would be vacant for awhile. I'm sorry about that. I'm praying that I will find time in my busy life to keep my blog alive as well.