27 Oct 2015

Live Alive

Looking back now, I kind of wish I'd savored everything more than I did. Late nights playing cards, laughing our heads off, inside jokes that we killed by telling them over and over again, sticky hugs from little brothers, toothless smiles, I love you's, being tucked in, jumping in the pool on a hot summer's day, eating watermelon, sitting by the fire telling stories in the winter, roasting marshmallows, trips to the beach that resulted in a car filled with sand, long drives, picnics and visits to the zoo, playing hide and seek, playing dress up, messing paint all over ourselves when we decided to repaint the walls in our rooms, climbing trees outside, running wild and barefoot, watching sunsets and sunrises. Moments that turned into memories. They haunt me, and after I've thought it through I realize it's in only a good way, if you can believe that. Nostalgia whispers to my soul often, and sometimes it makes me want to go back in time, do it all again, and do some things differently too. I miss 'back then'. Every now and then. But I can't spend my life chasing the past when it's already behind me.
All in all, I am grateful. For what has been, for what is, and for what will be. I've been through sadness and depression, through trials, through golden days that made my heart burst with contentment, experienced amazing experiences and made it out of dark times I thought I'd never survive. I've got to where I am now, a bright future ahead of me no matter what happens as long as I've got Jesus by my side.

You have got to remember, just like I have got to remember, that right now will also be long ago soon. Live in the moment, and live fully. Stop running around trying to get everything right and just breathe. Focus on the one most important thing: God. Let Him be in control, let things happen, let life happen. Take it a step at a time, don't forget to enjoy the company of the people you love and don't forget to eat that slice of chocolate cake once in awhile.

You're alive. It's no small thing. If you're reading this, you are alive. So act like it. Live alive.

Postscript: I'm back, just in case you didn't notice. It feels good. But I know I sort of left you all wondering where I went, since I didn't warn anyone that this blog (Foot. Fifth out of Ten. Oh my word, I just realized that my blog's abbreviation is foot) would be vacant for awhile. I'm sorry about that. I'm praying that I will find time in my busy life to keep my blog alive as well. 


  1. Tane... This is pure magic, pure beauty; just pure, really. <3 Wow. I'm glad you are back Tane as well! Yay!

    - www.whatlexieloves.blogspot.com

  2. Nostalgia always makes me feel 'haunted', as you put it. Some memories are just so good that you feel like nothing will ever match up to it, and you can't help but feel sad that that time has passed. It's true that we'll feel that way about today some time in the future, so thank you for reminding me to appreciate the present.

    The Life of Little Me

  3. You are such a thoughtful blogger!! I will DEFINATELY follow you now!!

    The Writer

  4. Ya I totally agree. You should savor the moments you have.

  5. You are such a lovely friend, dear Tane and your presence has been greatly missed in the blogging world...
    Such beautiful words and oh, how true! Sometimes I catch myself merely ''getting through'' each day when I should be enjoying and savouring each blissful moment, each painful experience... He is good all the time, and He has great plans for each of our lives!
    Blessings to you my friend! Again, SO good to have ya back!
    Hugs always,

  6. Missed you and your amazing posts, Tane!!! See you around! :)

    And yeah, I have those "I wish I could experience that all over again" moments too often for my liking. >< Hehe, lovely post!


  7. This is just beyond gorgeous to read!


  8. I loved this Tane!

  9. That's it - time goes so fast. Thanks for this reminder. :) The photo is lovely as well, and I shall just echo everyone else by adding: I missed your posts, and it's great to see you back. :)

  10. I love that so much. "Live alive". I'm an extremely nostalgic person, so I adore this post. <3

  11. Hey Tane! It's good to hear from you again! Missed your beautiful writing. You are absolutely right about memories being sadding at time and thinking to much about the future. I've written about this as well, seems there will always be a part of us that will want to keep living in the memories and think about the future. It's normal :)

  12. I've missed you, Tane, and your beautiful way of expressing yourself through blogging.


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  13. HAHA foot <3 i love foot. hehe. (i missed youuuu cries welcome back!!)

    also. yes, yes, and yes. it scares me sometimes how fast time passes and how often my 'nows' become memories. but i guess its a good thing 'cause it forces me to treasure them and keep them close to my heart xx

  14. I missed foot :( But I'm glad foot is back! I'm super excited for more posts on foot. xD

    Time passes so fast, doesn't it? I feel like it was just yesterday I was blowing out the candles for my 11th birthday. Sigh.


  15. Beyond amazing, Tane. I miss your writings. I miss you. Welcome back dear. <3

  16. This was incredible. YOU are incredible, Tane. x I'm just going to pick up where everyone else left off- This is one of my favorite blogs, and you always write with such a fresh voice. ily, and i love foot. ♥
    ~ Sanjana

  17. YOU ARE BACK. YESSS. I am so glad! Your writing always makes me speechless. Thank you for writing this.

  18. So happy to see you're back! I've missed your beautiful posts here. Especially here lately I've been longing to go back in time to relive some of the wonderful memories I have in my past. Thank you for the reminder that this time in my life is soon gonna be in the past, and to live alive <-- I love that! Oh and foot, hahaha, too funny!!


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