I will forever look up

"Once you've tasted the taste of the sky, you will forever look up."

-Leonardo Da Vinci

my head tilts to the sky

high above the birds fly

clouds pattern the earth's roof 

and my lungs inhale the fresh air
the sunshine's got me feeling 

like I don't have a single care

my eyes are gazing up

I will forever look up

shapeshifter

Sometimes, I beat myself down. And I can't stop, until I'm flattened.

I know there are people out there that do the same. People that can relate.
I know I'm not the only one who's spent so long attempting to be someone else. (-Mary Lambert)

Sometimes, I'm so unsatisfied with myself, with my very being, with everything I am. I despise words I've said, things I've done, how I look. And I resolve to watch other people, to reflect their actions, to try and become more like them.
I'll tell myself, if only I could be prettier, like her, if only I had more followers on Instagram, like her, if only I could be perfect, like her- maybe then I'd be good enough.
I try to fix myself, to change myself. To shape shift into someone else. I try to blend myself into another person's image, into a different identity.

But why would I do that? Why do I do that? Why do I spend time wrecking who I am, when I should be building on the good things about myself? Instead of adding to what's already there, training myself to be someone that can be relied on, trusted, loved.
There's more to being beautiful than what you see in the mirror. Beauty is deeper than that.
And you don't have to be pretty like her. You can be pretty like you.

You have your own characteristics. You have your own qualities. You are your own person. And you are worth more than rubies.
Please don't try and trade yourself in for a stranger. Don't throw yourself away.

You are valuable.

sunset sprite

isn't my little sister a lovely model?

puzzles

Human beings are puzzles. Each one of us, a bunch of individual, unique pieces fitted together. And every piece counts, whether it's a fault or a quality, a good or bad memory, a carefree laugh or a flood of tears, a hello or a goodbye. It builds us up to who we are meant to be, made to be.

But what happens if you're missing some of the pieces? What happens when other people carelessly lose and misplace them, or break them, so that you could never get them back again?

The answer to those questions: the puzzle won't be whole.

And she will feel the missing pieces, like holes in her soul.
But that's okay, because I believe that none of us are really whole puzzles. Not yet.
We're going to be.

Only One knows where the forgotten, lonely pieces are, only One can put them in the place where they belong, fit them in, to complete the picture.
He will complete the picture,
someday.

Philippians 1:6 - Being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

-side note: I've committed to use only my own photos from now on. No more Pinterest snatches. So, all photography in the future will be my own (this one is also mine). I'm excited to be getting back into proper photography, it's been long-

blog designing break

Hey, everyone. This...this is gonna be a sad post. And I'll probably delete it eventually.

I've made a decision I had to make- to stop designing blogs for some time. I don't know how long it will be, and I definitely hope to get back to it before the end of this year.
I'm currently designing Bethan's blog, Fiction and Tea, and I'll finish with that, and then, I regret to say, I'll have to reject the rest of my orders. I'll be removing myself from admin on the blogs I won't be able to finish with. As soon as I'm up and running again, you're welcome to order again, and I'm so sorry for doing this. Forgive me?
Life is just so FULL of so many other things, and sometimes, when I do actually have time, I want to write on my blog, instead of designing blogs. But the hovering, panicky feeling of how many blogs I've taken on to design, covers my eagerness to blog in one, big shadow.

So from now on, for an undecided amount of time, I'll be focusing more on my writing, and building my own blog.

Thank you all so much for the encouragement you give me...and to those who ordered, for giving me the compliment of even ordering a design in the first place.

-T

xxx